Tonight when I was rocking your brother to sleep I kissed his fingers and it made me think about your little fingers that I saw on the ultrasound. Someday soon I will be able to hold those little fingers in my hand and kiss them.

Dear Baby,

You are real! I saw you today. I have known for several weeks that you were growing inside me, but it was just hard for me to believe. Your big brother is still very little himself. And you came to be so quickly. I thought when I heard your heart beat at my first doctor's appointment you would seem real to me. But then I didn't hear your heartbeat. So I wouldn't let myself believe you were really in there. I would talk about "if" I was pregnant. Minus not hearing your heartbeat all things pointed to the fact that you were in there, so it shouldn't have been such a surprise. But when they put the ultrasound wand on my belly today and you showed up on the screen your dad and I were both shocked and oohed and awed in amazement. You are real! You have fingers! You have only been growing for 12 weeks and you have fingers! Your heartbeat is fast and strong. The person who did the ultrasound says you look good. I'm so relieved! And so happy that I can finally start preparing for you. It will be so nice to have you join our family. And now that I know you are real I find myself wondering so many things about you: Are you a boy or a girl? What will you look like? Will you have a mellow temperament or be a little more firey? Will you have hair when you are born? So many things to wonder!

Dear baby, I am glad that you are real!

Love,
Mom