Dear Baby,

Today is my Birthday. Each year on my Birthday I like to reflect on my year. It has been a big year for me. I can't believe that in the last year I have been pregnant with two different babies! I am excited to have you growing inside me. I'm having a hard time right now. mostly because of money. I have to work and as a result I have to start your brother in daycare tomorrow which makes me so sad. And even with me working we can barely pay the bills. Its very frustrating. When I think about it I get so discouraged. But I have your brother and I have you growing inside me and I am so excited to meet you and have you as a part of our family. The joy of having you and your brother far outweigh all the sadness and stress of other things. So happy birthday to me! I am so blessed!

Love,

Mom

Dear Baby,

Today I had a doctor's appointment and I heard your heartbeat. It was beautiful! Apparently you are a very active baby - the doctor had to chase you around to hear your heartbeat. Everything looks good with you. I am so happy that you are growing and developing well. I can't wait to meet you baby.

I have started to wonder if you are a boy or a girl. I haven't been to anxious to know because I really feel like I will be thrilled either way. I admit, when I was pregnant with your brother Max I was hoping he was a girl. I just couldn't imagine what I would do with a boy. But now that I have him I know how much I love having a little boy and I would be thrilled to have another one. But if you are a girl I would have a daughter and that is pretty special. I think that every girl dreams about having a little girl of her own one day. So either way I will be so happy. I imagine a boy and I am in love. I imagine a girl and I am in love. I am just wondering which one I should be imagining most. Which one are you?

Mom

Dear Baby,

Today I was at work and I was visiting with this cute little boy in clinic. I thought of you and your brother Max and my eyes filled with tears. I can't believe I get to be a mommy to two sweet kids. I feel so lucky.

I love you baby.

Love,

Mom

Dear Baby,

I felt you move today. Twice. My eyes teared up the second time. Suddenly you seem real. I know I have seen you, but to me I couldn't connect that the baby on the screen was a baby in me. But today I felt you move inside of me and suddenly it all came together. I wish I could make you move when I want to but I have to wait for you to do it on your own. I could just imagine your little body (about the size of my fist right now) doing summer salts and your little legs kicking. Welcome to my life sweet baby. Thanks for making yourself known. I hope you enjoy growing inside of me.

Love,
Mom

stop scaring me - didn't hear heart beat

Saw on ultra sound - saw your feet. Now I have seen your feet and hands.

So little. I can't believe you are inside me. It is so amazing to be a part of a miracle.