Dear Baby Girl,

You had me so worried yesterday. The doctor told me that it is a good sign that you are healthy because I feel you move so much. Now every time I feel you move I take comfort. So yesterday when I didn't feel you move all the worries I have about you grew and grew. I asked your dad to give me a blessing. I wanted him to say that you would be okay. He didn't say that, but he said some things that brought me some comfort and some things that seemed very personal to me and this situation. Basically he said three things. One, I need to have faith. He reminded me of the scripture that if you knock it will be opened to you. This is something that doesn't come naturally to me so it seems really personal that I need to work on it. And I understand that this is something that will be really personal and something that no one else can do for me. Two, he instructed me to enjoy this time and talked about how special and unique a time it is when a woman is expecting a baby. I so much want to enjoy every moment of this and sew you lots of cute things, but I am having a hard time letting myself do this because I don't know if you will be okay and if I will get to keep you. Three, I have friends and family that love me and care for me and they can help me with whatever I need and I should trust in this and rely on them. That part makes me a little nervous, wondering what I will need help with. But overall I found comfort in it and I found that it gave me enough instruction to feel like I have some sort of direction and task to work on in a situation that feels so out of my control.

That night, after the blessing, I was laying in bed reading. Your dad had his hand resting on my stomach. I started to feel you move, but I didn't say anything to him. I wanted to be sure it was real. I wanted to sort my feelings. I wanted to enjoy the feeling. Suddenly your dad laughed. He felt you move. I knew it was real. We had both enjoyed it. I gave him a kiss on his big smile. It was the same kind of excitement as learning for the first time that we were expecting you. It was a very special moment.

Baby girl, please keep moving inside me. I find so much comfort in it.

Love,

Mom